As i take the road less traveled

K-pop, views of a rather selfish fan on how and why it is being ass-raped

2010-05-02T19:03:00.000-07:00

we all know how kpop started to rise here in ph. to briefly state its history, we can say it started with some people(who IMO, are fans of the HeroSan tandem from way back when, and yes jellah, isa k jan...) discovered that Sandara Park became a member of a hiphop girl group in Korea called 2ne1...then came WG's Nobody which became a big hit, and SuJu's Sorry Sorry...a lot of firsts happened and 4minute brought the first well-promoted kpop promo tour, Suju became the first kpop group to have a gold record in ph, filipino kpop FCs had more members than ever and Steven gave birth to the GCBoards kpop thread(LOL...hi people!, sana mabasa niu 2)...

something before i start...i actually wanted to write this about a few months ago but i didn't because of 20% priorities and 80% pure laziness...that was when i first saw Tell me Your Wish on myx...i decided to really write it now when one of my wishes failed to come true, i wished that T-ara would never be introduced to the madlang people and if ever they come to Ph, only true blue kpop fans would know...then i heard BoPeepBoPeep on the radio and on myx...now im problematic since BoPeep may bring about a new Nobody due to the simple, but catchy, lyrics and dance moves which resemble Nobody a lot in catchiness and overall appeal to non-fans IMO(or i may just be TOO paranoid, but this paranoia has a reason)...

so why do i think that Kpop is being ass-raped here in the Philippines? first of all, the advent of what i openly call RIP-OFFS...by rip-offs, i mean too much copying that it turns out badly...before i start, i would like to say that some of the members of these groups are actually talented and good-looking and im not an anti of these groups, i just think what they are doing does not do justice to kpop itself...despite that, i applaud them for not following the revival trend of opm artists nowadays (kiss, kick and kiss FTW!)...singing a song with a filipino verse and english chorus is ugly if you make it sound too much like kpop...changing the last notes of Sorry's intro is ugly if you make it sound too much like kpop...having golden hair like G-Dragon and sampling a song from BB's japanese album is ugly, though im a fan of the man who did that...those artists could have used their talents to write a more original song and brought back the glory OPM had, but instead they went with the flow and chose to rip kpop off...poor things...(i wont post vids of these so-called rip-offs, just search the term ppop in youtube..i might burn if i see their faces)

next are things like this...

Click to see something so disappointing that it bleeds

i never really watched that video but the comments say what it contains...according to people who commented, it contains pure CRAP...according to someone from the GC Kpop thread, if he were to make a ten commandments, dancing like that would be a sin...

to compare watch this...

Lola ko

it looks kinda crappy right? but look at the comments...san mas natuwa ang kpop fans? s lola ko db?(that sounds funny) and ELFs even enjoyed it...why? because parodies are the best form of flattery, not total imitation which leads to a fail...

so why is it that kpop is being assraped?

if you haven't been watching tv for the past years, then you might not know that the trend in media these days is going with the flow...what's famous in other countries should have a philippine version...this mentality of media giants led to the destruction of originality in philippine tv...and it got worse when kpop rose to fame...when these media giants will stop thinking like this is a mystery, thus, this lack of originality will last indefinitely...

why do you think they are doing this? i cant say that it's all for the money, though it mostly is...i think it's just like those Fail threads you see in online forums...that first video i linked, that can be branded as an EPIC FAIL to netizens...and what do they do to kill these fail threads? they close them down, stop the thread starter and those who may enter it from commenting, letting the fail die on its own...

that's what these media giants should do, stop it...i dont know if they do not know that videos are meant to be commented on on youtube or they really are dumb, but they cant see that what they are doing is pissing off a whole community...i have never heard of any SONE who was delighted at that first video and all other imitations that they did...

so, until the giants realize their fails, kpoppers like me will have to medicate ourselves with watching the real deals on our media players, the eyedrop that soothes our sore eyes from all the bullshit they are doing...and knowing media giants, this battle with crap will last long...

but there is a bigger enemy people, and it sounds like an animal (clue: a beaver)...

ADDITIONAL:

i know a giant who understands the hearts of people...they promoted kpop and even pinoy artists evenly...they even collaborated with FCs to bring to the kpop community what we thought were dreams...they hear us out...

under construction

2010-04-18T20:05:00.000-07:00

im going back to blogging someday...thoughts are piling up and i need an output..

warning:these thoughts that are piling up fall under these categories:

kpop stuff
anime stuff(FMA and inuyasha kicks ass dude)
emo-ness but slightly less emo than previous posts
ice cream
18+ raps
south park humor
how hard it is to stay at home
chocolate

stay tuned...

just another minor post after some songs got me emo...

2009-11-09T17:31:00.000-08:00

i'd love it if you listen to the song, if you dont like the person in the vid, well, just listen and dont watch (but personally, i LOVE that girl in the video)

"our last kiss
tasted like tobacco
a bitter and sad smell

tomorrow, at this time
where will you be?
who will you be thinking about?

you are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

the paused time is
about to start moving
there's many things that I don't want to forget about

tomorrow, at this time
I will probably be crying
I will probably be thinking about you

you will always be inside my heart
you will always have your own place
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

you are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song"

so why did i just post something like this for my comeback? i really dont know, but there' something about the song that....hmmm...connects with me...

i dont know if i am yet to get over my first love...but heck, for me, every new love is a "first love"...

i got to go, two more hours before the start of my first class of the second semester, wish me luck...

just an added info, the chorus seems to be the same as a song from a filipino artist...just guess who (i personally hate that song)

i dont own the video nor the translation...

dont flame me for this!!!

2009-08-14T08:46:00.000-07:00

so it's exactly 11:51...im want to know how long it takes for me to make an entry...

disclaimer: the following blog entry does not mean that you should question my sexuality...i am still straight...haha!!!

im want to talk about my new "addiction"...

is it a game? NO!!!
is it a tv show? NO!!!
is it porn? HELL NO!!!

it's a girl group!!! a korean girl group to be exact...

It's So nyu Shi Dae!! (or Girl's Generation)
(english is hard, filipino n nga lng)

"what the heck? c cedric nakikinig at nanonood ng ganyan? kung porn ean bka naniwala p ko..."

kung gusto nio clang makilala, konsultahin nio c google(nkakatamad magcopy-paste d2 e)..ang masasabi ko lng, cla ang the best n girl group n napanood ko(if you consider talent, songs, and marketability)...

pano ko nalaman ean? cmple lng, cnabi sken ng kuya ko na mas adik sken...pinapanood nia sken 2ng video n 2 and aun, nagustuhan ko...

(credits to those who should be credited, too many to mention)

ganda no? hehe...mas matutuwa k p s kanila pag pinanuod mu ung iba nilang vids s youtube...i dont want to sound like a girl, but they really are cute, funny, smart and talented (ignore those effing flamers and antis)

that's it for now...poging bagsik is signing out!!! peace!!!

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even the rain cant put me out!!!

2009-07-30T06:22:00.000-07:00

i needed an output for this overflow of random thoughts coming into my head lately...
it was then that i remembered that this blog of mine existed...

first of all, activism has been on my mind lately...at first it didn't bother me, but after learning all that this wretched government has done to the country, things i never imagined were true, i really feel that i have an inner activist that wants to go out into the world. privatization of the land where my beloved state university stands, that freakin con-ass that i just understood lately (i knew about it, but i never really bothered to study it until now), and other things i read about while roaming UPD, they all seem so wrong to me..shucks i'll stop with this for now...

haist, nagiging emo n nmn mood ko, para matigil ang kaemohan...

ipapakita ko sa inyo kung ano ang itsura ng mga bontakun at kung gaano cla kacute lalo n pag nangraratrat gamit ang machine gun, ang inspirasyon ng screen name kong T.G. Pontakun (naging "p" kc akala ko bilog at hindi quotation marks ung nasa hiragana nung bontakun, it matters)

o db? ang cute no? and that's how i came to be..joke!!!

e2 p..video ng bontakun!!! e2 ung napanood ko kaya lalo kong inidolo c bontakun!!! wahehe!!

credits dun s mga site n makikita mo pag niright-click mo ung images at pinindot mo ung properties tsaka k furbyfurball ng youtube kahit ndi kmi close..ahaha!!! xempre sa creators ng fullmetal panic fumoffu para s paggawa ng bontakun!!!

signing out!! pEACE!!!!

the weirdest feeling from the weirdest name (my first week)

2009-06-23T06:02:00.000-07:00

tagal ko ng di nagbablog aa..masubukan nga ulet...haiszt

first week ko s college? lupet dudes! kakaiba...

1st day, 1st subject, walking for fitness...sbi ng form5 ko s track oval daw...after 30 minutes ng paghahanap s oval, dadating k dun ng basang-basa dahil tanga ka at wala kang payong...ganda ng feeling no? mas gaganda p ean pag nalaman mo n s new gym pla ung klase nio...ganda ng feeling no? /sarcasm

pero dahil dun, nalaman kong pinagpapala ang mga naaapi...kung bakit ko nasabi ito ay sikret n lng...malalaman mo rin s mga susunod n buwan...

hainaku...dahil s 1st week, nalaman ko n ang importansya ng pakikimingle...ayoko maulet ung nangyare nung hayskul na nagpakaloner ako...nagmukha 2loy akong unapproachable..at according kei angelo, nagmukhang siga na nambubugbog at mabilis makikick-out...wahaha!!

anyway, masaya pla talaga ung feeling ng nkatambay k lng...wala kang ginagawa pero hindi k tinatamad...nkakapag-icp k...nkakapagbasa k ng libro...naiicp mo ung lesson niu s math17...iba ang feeling...hindi n ko confined s iisang lugar lng...nkakalibot n ko...parang nkamit ko n ung kalayaan n hinahanap ko cmula nung ipinanganak ako...haiszt...

pero dami ring nawala s buhay ko...walang pakikibarkada dahil wala nmn akong block...bawas ang dota dahil wala nmng kalaro...bawas ang paggigitara dahil ndi ko nmn pwedeng dalhin s skul un gitara ko...sarap p nmn sanang mangharana tuwing tuesday at thursday...ehem!

aun hirap talaga mag-icp ng isusulat pag cnisigawan k n ng "PATAYIN MO N EAN!!! ALAS_ONSE N!!!!

bago ako umalis...ill xare these vids n talagang nagpasaya sken nung summer...kung naooffend k s mga kabastusan at pagmumura...wag mu nang panuoren

credits sa Ungga Tungga Team! galing nio s kalokohan...wahaha!!

good man out, PEACE!!!

Im back! (views about thing we see on television)

2009-04-23T02:19:00.000-07:00

"summertime, summertime"

grabe...tagal ko n rn plang hindi naglalabas ng saloobin gamit ang blog aa...daming topic n ndi ko naiblog...haiszt!!

ang hirap pla pag summer before college tpus wala kang pera...gusto mong lasapin lahat ng alam mong mamimiss mo pag ndi nasa kolehiyo k n pero hindi mo magawa...

gusto ko magdota- "ay, wala akong pera"
gusto ko mag-mall- "ay, wala akong pera"
gusto ko magtxt-"ay, wala akong load"

grabe talaga...ngayon alam ko n kahalagahan ng pag-iipon ng baon...

anyway, ngaung summer mei isa pang nkaiinis n bagay ngaung summer...
pag nanuod k ng tv, ang mga sumusunod ang karaniwang makikita mo...

mukha ni pacquiao (maayos)
mukha ni pacquiao (ngarag ng suntok)
mukha ng kalaban ni pacquaio (mas ngarag, para maipakita ang dominance ni pacquiao)
mukha ni ted failon
bangkay ng asawa ni ted failon
mga pulis n galit kay ted failon
kaplastikan ni mar roxas
kalokohan ng gobyerno
mga taong walang ginagawa para umunlad kaya't sinisisi ang gobyerno
mga baklang "nagpapatawa" sa pamamagitan ng panlalait sa iba
mga nkaluwang boobs ng mga babaeng nagpapaseksi n lng para pag-usapan ng madla
mukha mg mga artistang ndi nmn marunong umarte pero sobrang sikat dahil gwapo o maganda o kaya'y malaki ang boobs
video ng kantang "love story" ni taylor swift
mga nilalang ng karagatan n nagsasalitang parang tao
mga game show na kinuha ang concept mula sa mga banyaga
mga walang kamatayng asianovelas o kaya'y mga pinoy versions nito

anung pahiwatig ng mga ito tungkol s patutunguhan ng bansa ntin?

magnanumber one c ted failon kung sakaling tatakbo xa bilang senador s 2010 election
may isanlibo o mahigit pang magpapauto sa komersyal ni mar roxas at iboboto xa sa eleksyon. dadami pa ang mga gago kung magpapakasal sila ni korina sa february.
hindi p rin matitigil ang sisihan sa pagitan ng masa at ng gobyerno. matitigil lng ito kung masusunog ang buong pilipinas at ilalock ang mga buwaya sa kongreso at s malacanang habang may session sila o kaya'y mamamatay ang lahat ng pilipino dahil s mass starvation.
kung gusto mong maging nakakatawa, dapat ay bakla ka. no offense pero grabe, dominated n talaga ng mga bading ang industriya ng komedya. hindi man cla ang nasa itaas, karamihan nmn ng nasa ibaba ay kalahi nila. bihira ng makapanuod ng babaeng komedyante at ung isa pang sikat, isa lng ang brand of comedy (db ruffa mae?) anyway, buti n lng may "whose line is it anyway?" sa star world..nkakanuod p ko ng meaningful n comedy.
maxado n taung nkapokus sa panlabas n anyo ng tao. s showbiz ngaun, kung hindi k maganda o gwapo, hindi k sisikat (unless talentado k talaga at matiyaga). buti p c susan boyle n kahit ganun ang itsura ay lubos ang papuri nila s kanya. pakantahin mo un dito, lalaitin lng mukha niya. kaya hindi sumikat ung nanalo ng philippine idol n c mau marcelo kahit magling xa e, maxado kc xang mataba kaya nasasabing "unmarketable" xa. ndi naappreciate ang mga totoong talentado s musika e. mas gusto nten ung magaganda at gwapo ang kumakanta kesa sa kanila. kaya ang kalalabasan, ung mga sikat na artista n lng ang pinapagawa ng album. pinag-rerevive n lng cla ng mga sikat n kanta dati para ndi pancnin n ndi cla marunong kumanta. o kaya todo remix para maging kaboses nila ung mga kagaya nina susan boyle at mau marcelo. isa lng ang masasabi kong magaling talaga at may itsurang ihaharap, c sarah geronimo.
patay na ang originality sa telebisyon. kung pwede nga lng e foreign shows n lng ang ipalabas sa local channels at isingit n lng sa lineup nila ung wowowee, eat bulaga, at mag flash report n lng every now and then.

aun lng...wala n kong maidagdag...hirap mag-isip pag sinigawan k n ng nanay mo ng "PATAYIN MO N EAN!!!"

peace!

P.S. iwanna share this video (para sa mga taong walang cable o kaya'y ndi fan ng kamikazee)

credits to Universal Records para s video at sa Myx para sa pagpopost nito s youtube

another episode in the life of a worthless earth creature

2009-02-17T05:40:00.000-08:00

so, what now? not a lot of things happening lately...except for those really great surprises from Benjamin Almeda that we all love...and an unpleasant game of Grand chase that haunted me...

if you were given a chance to choose between one of two forked paths, one is short and will lead to a safe and comfortable place, one is really long, winding and uncertainty lies at the end, where will you go? why the hell did i choose the long one? i dont know if im just adventurous or just extremely idiotic...i was told to stop but i continued. now im bleeding from the inside...

this post may be another reason to call me "emo", but heck, emo n kung emo, pinili kong maging expressive e...walang pakialamanan...

tama n nga muna ang ganito,...nagsasawa n ata kau sa ganitong laman ng blog n to n walang pictures, makaluma ang background music at kung anu-anu pang ka-"low tech"-an...cguro next tym i post..masaya n..makakalimot n ko...haha

lyrics time para mahaba-haba nmn mapost ko

Of all the things I believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears from behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days passed me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I used to get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

When the stars fall and I lie awake
You're my shooting star

"what doesn't hurt you, makes you stronger"

The Law of Parting ways

2009-02-10T05:45:00.000-08:00

Well, im back to blogging...

been topsy-turvy lately...i don't know if its going way too easy or just getting harder..
easy because there has been almost nothing to do in school, english and physics are the only real subjects now, with mapeh, eco, chem, and calculus as semi-subjects and others are just nonsense. i dont really get the point in going to school now except for the money and the oppportunity to see two girls i really like.

on the contrary, it's really hard.

first, graduation. i dont really see myself being away from these people that go by the alias 4AVER. it's true that i despised them during the early parts of the year but after one fateful day, evrything changed. it's like every bonding opportunity with them is time well spent. with them, there's a reason to smile everyday.

but as they say, all good things must come to an end. people of 4AVER will go separate ways. different colleges to go to, new circle of friends to form, 39 lives that will start anew. it's just so sad. and i think benjamin almeda will make it even harder to part.

those nights spent for practices TOGETHER...
those trash collecting sprees TOGETHER...
those crying moments TOGETHER...
the xmas concert we performed TOGETHER...

every bit of memory just makes it even harder to leave mandsci...

i never realized that i will say this but..

"THIS CLASS IS FREAKIN' AWESOME!!!!" "I LOVE THIS CLASS"

im getting a bit drowsy and teary-eyed...gotta leave

"parting is such a sweet sorrow"

dahil paranoid ako s bipolar disorder

2009-01-13T04:54:00.000-08:00

nagawa ko ito..thx kay angelique piano

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	High
Schizoid Disorder:	Moderate
Schizotypal Disorder:	High
Antisocial Disorder:	Moderate
Borderline Disorder:	Moderate
Histrionic Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Disorder:	Very High
Avoidant Disorder:	High
Dependent Disorder:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- -- Personality Disorders --

awwwww!!!

something i think i have...

2009-01-10T09:56:00.001-08:00

belated merry xmas and a happy new year!!!

i've been reading and im deeply concerned about this disease. i think i have it but as most doctors say, it's hard to diagnose even for experts.

Bipolar disorder is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a category of mood disorders defined by the presence of one or more episodes of abnormally elevated mood clinically referred to as mania or, if milder, hypomania. Individuals who experience manic episodes also commonly experience depressive episodes or symptoms, or mixed episodes in which features of both mania and depression are present at the same time. These episodes are usually separated by periods of "normal" mood, but in some individuals, depression and mania may rapidly alternate, known as rapid cycling. Extreme manic episodes can sometimes lead to psychotic symptoms such as delusions and hallucinations. (from wikipedia)

Mania is characterized by increased energy, speech disruptions, impaired judgment, changes in thought patterns, mood changes, changes in perception. people often experience anxiety and irritability to the point of rage.

im sure that i have experienced these before. there was one time that my friends actually said something about me being fat that i was enraged and chased them out of the room (trust me, this does not usually happen). another is racing thoughts. im pretty sure that my thoughts are usually like this. also, i had sudden outbursts of creativity, distractability, and disjointed thinking. and last is inflated self-esteem. i dont wanna get started on that. omg!

Next is depression. it is often characterized by the opposite of what happens in mania. and people with this usually talks about, suicide and being actually dead. loss of excitement over pleasurable activities, hopelessness, helplessness, inability to concentrate, are some symptoms.

now this is one that i am sure of. there was this period(or periods) in my life that i been so depressed that my grades went down, i never enjoyed dota, and i "locked myself from the world." there are countless events that i asked someone about suicide and what would they do if i die, what if i faked a suicide and such. my friends often call me emo for these things.

im still not sure and i dont know if a nearby doctor can help me. oh shucks! im getting worried.

bye for now...ahahahaiii!!!

another bit of randomness...lalala!!!

2008-12-20T20:51:00.000-08:00

just some thoughts id like to share with you...kinda bored here...

my brother asked me, "are we just the reflections of those people beyond the mirror? what if we really are the reflections and they are the real ones?" i answered, "do you feel like you're alive, do you think that you are being controlled by them? no, right? then it doesn't matter"

how do you handle being in love with someone who is madly in love with someone else? will you wait or try to make her/him change course? just thinking...haha

im addicted to punk covers right now. go yellowcard for covering everywhere and starting line for im real. really cool. punk rock's so cool.

who do you think is the first crazy person who ever lived? the first to try suicide? the first to make music? the first to write? the first person who read? the one who invented the letters and numbers? the first to invent clothes? the first to build a home? i think these are the people who should really be given credit. they are the pioneers of everyday living. haha

that's all...just a bit of randomness...haiii...

"if you were not in love with my best friend, things would be a lot easier for both of us."

Let's talk games baby!

2008-12-18T17:47:00.000-08:00

well, i have never made a post about the thing that composes one-fourth of my life..GAMES!!!

i have played many games before...im even one of the pioneers of ragnarok (i played during beta, so i can be considered as one) and up to this day, im still addicted to gaming...

here's a rundown of what i played and how good i am at them...

RAGNAROK!!! well, it's my first game...started out a bit roughly but got he hang of it quickly enough...if i was given a chance to play this again i surely will...too bad load money makes my wallet empty...im pretty good at this, my main being a lvl90 champion and another lvl85 whitesmith...if you see someone named Arianne_Asura, don't threaten her or else...

ROSE!!! ahhhh, a game i actually had friends to play with...got to level 65 as a dealer but got tired when they announced tha tgame development in the Philippines will cease because of lack of player support...good times!

CABAL!!! a game i played wit hmy brother..got tired after 3 months...the game doesn't have the thrill because all you do is grind, grind, grind, pvp, grind, pvp....when you finish grinding, everything becomes too easy...even bosses can't stand up to you...and teamwork doesn't even factor into the equation of victory in battle...

AUDITION!!! well, not really addicted to this...just played to check it out...it's hard for someone like me who has the stiffest fingers in the land...haha

ADVENTURE QUEST!!! now this is a casual game that can be addictive...it's browser-based so you don't have to download...it's single player but when you actually discover the forums, it becomes interactive...haha...www.battleon.com

DOTA!!! DOTA!!! DOTA!!! what i would consider best game ever...the diversity of things you could do here is endless...teamwork is a big factor (but my friends don't even see that, that's why they don't see how good i really am..joke!!!) we recently played with guys practicing for a tournament, and i was amazed with our performance...i had 20 assist, johndel and paolo had a lot of double kills and lemuel got so beefed up...haha

well, got to go out now..this is the tensai ponta signing off!!

"how can i move on when im still in love with you?"

Late night post

2008-12-16T07:17:00.001-08:00

woah! it's 11:17pm on my clock and im still posting...insomnia much?

im just gonna write down some things about events happening to me and 4-almeda...sigh

CHRISTMAS CONCERT!!! well, im not one of the performers but i was given a harder task. i was supposed to coordinate with the lightsman to make sure that we looked beautiful onstage. pretty nerve-wrecking if you ask me. if i made a mistake, im dead. but i pulled it off. we pulled it off!! our performance was banging! i looked around and saw even the choreographers of other classes dancing and singing to our songs. it was fulfilling! also, this performance signifies the newly-built bond between members of almeda. i never felt so close to them during this period. from practices, misadventures, hyperventilations, crying sessions, we were together. i never thought we would be this bonded. hope it lasts long. (gosh! i tend to not get pictures of the most important events in my life..sigh!)

TEACHER FIGHT!!!! we're currently in a predicament right now. teachers have a grudge against us for various reasons that i think should be left in the past. for me, i think they're being OA about this matter. enough about this. this makes me tick!

EPIPHANY!!! i just realized that to be happy this christmas, i have to forget this girl. i should be contented with my loveless life. she's not ready yet. well, im willing to wait but i dont think that would be good. now im off to find someone who will give me the same chill that she did.

pretty nonsense post again huh? that's because the one writing this is worthless. anyway, he's single so u might want to text him especially if you're beautiful, light-skinned and about 5'1" tall. lol

GO 4-AVER!!!!!!!!!!

EMO!!!! (update sa buhay ng isang taong walng magawa)

2008-11-19T04:11:00.000-08:00

woah!! it's been a while since i posted here...

just a little summary of what happened to me during those postless weeks...

second TV appearance (via national super quiz bee..haha..feeling sikat ako e...)
got seriously involved in the development of the school paper (go bryan!)
i ceased participation in our xmas presentation (for reasons you won't understand)
fell truly in love...and got dumped in the process...shet!!
recently went under a "three-kilometer walk every day" training program
i just quit playing a lot of games(bye cabal and ragnarok!)...only game left is Dota which will take time before i decide to stop playing it too...

ok..that's enough...serious post time...

probably the thing that had the most impact on me is the fourth one...and i posted here to let out all the things i want to say...

it's the second time i loved a person really deeply( or third, i don't know...yeah third, second was the one with the girl who went to canada)...and though it's only been one month since we got close to each other, it scarred me alot when i was dumped...

i felt inferior to my friends who had the power to make girls love them...i felt bad about myself because i'm in senior year and i never had a girlfriend (i pity myself)...

well..she did tell to look for someone better than her...and i think i can do that...i got my eyes on that sleeping angel of final period..

that's all...i don't want to spill all the details...

i have to kill these mosquitoes before they kill me...

this is ponta kin signing off! meow!!

just want to try something

2008-09-24T04:07:00.000-07:00

nabasa ko ung blog ni cheska (my beloved seatmate) at nakita ko to...gusto ko lng itry...

Instructions:

1. Tag 7 people before answering this stuff.
2. Do not peek at the questions below or even try to remember it while reading.
3. Replace the 20 random friends of the one who tagged you with your own 20 random friends.
4. Don't create a particular order, it will make the game boring.
5. Answer the questions below after.

20 random names:
1. Arianne Balaoing

2. Mara Roldan

3. Daniel Frago

4. Oliver Tabell

5. Paolo Reyes

6. Cheska Magcaleng

7. Arlene QUintos

8. Aileen Quintos

9. James Silao

10. Jellah Jimenez

11. Angel PIano

12. Lemuel Villaflor

13. Rorimae Deiocaresa

14. Camille Sotto

15. Anna de villa

16. Yvette Corral

17. Johndel Gumapi

18. Kimberly Lee

19. Tasha Evangelista

20. Yvon Salamat
Questions:
1. What if #7 told you he/she likes you?
-I'll be shocked, a little pause, then i'll die of happiness...i'm really into her, you know...

2. What if #15 and #17 dated?
- it's cool...what will isaac think? he's johndel's friend and i think he has a thing for anna...hmmmm, forget about that...i think this would really be good for those two romantics..

3. What if di mo nakilala si #19?
-i don't know...cguro marami akong naisayaw nung prom..pero mababawasan mga kukulitin ko...

4. What if nagsuntukan/nagsampalan kayo ni #16?
-huh? eh hindi n nga kami nagkikita nun ngaun e..haha...

5. What if #1 is a lost sibling?
- it's cool..i always wanted a sister...hehe

6. What do you like about #4?
- madali ciang pakisamahan...tsaka madamaing pwedeng asarin s kanya...

7. What do you hate about #10?
- anlakas nia manapak...xha ang isa sa mga taong nakakapenetrate s shield ko...

8. What is the most memorable moment you had with #12?
- BATTLE OF THE BANDS practice!! haha

9. What things do you have in common with #5?
- presidency ean ..what else do i have to say?...

10. What is the worst thing #20 did to you?
- wala pang nagagawa skeng masama ean...cguro pinakamasama n ung hindi nia pagreply sa text ko...

11. Would you love #2?
- I totally love her as a friend! (hindi ko n binura ung sagot nung kinopyahan ko nito...pareho lng e)

12. Would you die for #6?
- oo nmn...love ko eang seatmate ko e...hehe..

13. Would you kill # 15 for a million dollars?
- no! ayoko pumatay ng pure-babae...papatayin ako ng koncenxa ko pag ganun...

14. Would you marry #14?
- isip muna ko ng sagot..cguro pag pumayag xha..haha..

15. Would you trade places with #3?
- yup...gusto ko buhay niya..maraming thrill..hehe

16. What present would you give to #18 on Christmas?
- bibigyan ko xha ng maraming papel n pwedeng sulatan ng notes at excuse letter...

17. What do you envy about #8?
-mei kakambal xha..tpus macpag xha...aun..

18. What would you do if #17 became a homosexual?
- tatawa ko ng malakas...as in ung maririnig hanggang novaliches...

20. What would you do if #13 and #11 fought?
-they don't even know each other...

21. Describe #11.
-she's one of the coolest friends someone could have...she's got a great sense of justice and she pretty much shares the same likes as me...but sometimes she's weird

22. If there would be a #21, who would it be?
-c mam balanay..fave adviser ko...hehe

23. What is #10's catch phrase?
-"Hindi n kita love...." lagi nia eang cnasbe kapag inaaway nmen xha...hehe

24. Do you think you and #3 could date?
-********! lalaki un e! walang ganyanan...

25. Did you ever dream of #7?
-of course...a lot of times...i think out of all the people there, i have been dreaming about her the most..and for some time now, i have been wishing for all of those dreams to come true...

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naiinis ako

2008-09-20T05:37:00.000-07:00

so here i am again...after a "postless" month, naicpan q at last n pakialaman itong blog ko...bkt ko kamo naicpan? kasi naiinis ako...

naiinis ako dahil wala n nmn akong lowd...

naiinis ako dahil KJ ang OIC nmen..

naiinis ako dahil hindi ako pinapansin ng "queen of hearts"

naiinis ako dahil ang nakakalito ung limits of special functions

naiinis ako dahil maraming langgam s bahay nmen..

naiinis ako dahil walang pera ung character ko s cabal

naiinis ako dahil talo kmi s dota dahil nagcacabal ako habang naglalaro

naiinis ako dahil hindi ko n alam kung sino ang pwede at hindi pwedeng lapitan s klasrum nmen..

naiinis ako dahil maxado nang nagbago ang mga tao sa klasrum

naiinis ako dahil hindi p ako nakakapag-aral s tle long test

naiinis ako dahil torpe ako

naiinis ako dahil sira monitor nmen (nagiging dilaw ung kulay)

naiinis ako dahil..

tama n muna...sign off muna me...hope i make at least two posts this week...

ill share a video with u before i leave...

enjoy!!!

a song i want to share with you (kindly turn off the auto music playing on the right side of this blog)

2008-08-21T05:31:00.000-07:00

this is a song by Relient K that really touched my heart..since i was affected greatly by the song, i wan to share it to everyone...it's really finger-lickin good...weeeeeeee!!!

so here it is, namnamin niu ung lyrics aa...

Faking My Own Suicide - Relient K

Here's the lyrics...

So I've made up my mind
I will pretend
To leave this world behind
And in the end
You'll know I've lied
To get your attention
I'm faking my own suicide

I'm faking my own suicide
Because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide
They'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you will die
Along with me

Wish you thought that I was dead
So rather than me
You'd be depressed instead
And before arriving at my grave
You'd come to the conclusion
You've loved me all your days
But it's too late
Too late for you to say

Because I'm faking my own suicide
Because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide
They'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you will die
Along with me

I'll write you a letter that
You'll keep
Reminding you your love for me
Is more than six feet deep
You say aloud that you
Would've been my wife
Right about that time
Is when I come back to life
And let you know
I'd let you know (whooaa)

I was faking my own suicide
Because I know you loved me
You just never realized
I was faking my own suicide
I'll walk in that room and
See your eyes open so wide
I've been so lost
Because you know
Because you know
You will never leave my sight (you will never leave my sight)
Until the day that I die for the first time (until I die for the first time)
And we'll laugh, yeah we'll laugh
And we will cry
So overjoyed with the love
That saved my life
Our love is so alive

so tell me what you think..nagdevelop n b taste ko sa music? magaling b clang christian rock band? mei mairerecommend p b kaung kantang kagaya nun? un lng..

and by the way, record breaking talaga ang august dahil ngaun lng ako nakapagpost in two consecutive days...weeeeeee!!!! aun lng...as a finale, picture time:

i will do that just for you

Some random stuff i want to talk about

2008-08-20T04:06:00.000-07:00

e2 n nmn ako..and this time mei record n..nakagawa ako ng tatlong posts sa isang buwan!!!! (palakpakan!!!)

ung ngaun ay isang post lang out of boredom pero sana mei matutunan kau kahit papano..hehe..

1. bkt ganun ang "major subjects? sa school? by major subjects, i mean mapeh, tle, and the likes...internal hemorrhage (sp?) na inabot ko at ng clasm8s ko...db dapat ung mga totoong subjects ang mahirap ang test? bkt nagiging baliktad? the world's so fucked up...sheesh!

2. sino sasang-ayon sa mga salitang ito?:

"ang tunay na galing ng isang tao ay lumalabas kapag siya ay nakacram"

3. mei saysay ba ang magmahal ng isang taong may mahal na? mahal as in mei gf/bf na...db wala n? e kung mei tao nmn sa likod mo n handang ibigay sau ung hinahanap mo sa iba, meirason k p b para hindi lumingon? at tungkol dun sa taong nasa likod nung nagmamahalsa mei gf/bf n, bkt ang hilig niang pumatol sa binabasura ng iba?..hindi b xha nagsasawa sa buhay nia? (shet sana mabasa to ni ano)

4. tama bang magpagawa ka, bilang isang guro, ng halos sandosenang gawain sa mga estudyante mo khit ndi k nagtuturo? ndi makatarungan un db?

5. bkt b napagkakaisahan ang mga taong nais lamang sa buhay ay sumaya? ilagay nio kaya sarili nio sa posisyon nia. nakakaawa ung babae. ndi dahil wala ka kung anung meron xha ay naghahanap k n ng paraan para magalit k s kanya.

un lng muna. ndi p ko nagrereview s chemistry. haiii..periodical exams talaga o, panira sa pagdodota...

First time

2008-08-16T04:50:00.000-07:00

gaya ng tradisyon ko sa blog n to, intro muna kung bkit ganito post ko..

habang naghahalungkat ako sa lalagyan ng mga lumang cd d2 sa bahay, may nakita akong kakaiba...kulay pink yung cd tpus puro bulaklak...because of my love for all things pink, tinry ko ung cd...by the way, cd pala un ni Jacque Estevez, ung batang laging kasama ni Rochelle ng Sexbomb Girls ng Eat bulaga, wag niu n tanungin kung bkit ko alam...

anyway, isang kanta lng ang nagustuhan ko dun(puro pansayaw ung iba, panget n)...title nia is "First time"...ang corny nung kanta pero dahil in love pa ko, nagustuhan ko siya...

kaya aun, naicpan kong magpost tungkol sa FIVE TURNING POINT FIRSTS ng buhay ko..and it goes something like this...

una, first time ko uminom ng alak na alam ko n umiinom ako ng alak...birthday celebration un ni mich at khit isang shot lng un, feeling ko iminulat ako nun sa mga bagay na ginagawa ng mga mature people...

ikalawa, first time kong "maging makamundo" noong grade four ako...no further explanation...bka pumangit reputasyon ko...

ikatlo, una akong naging conscious sa itsura ko noong second year ako...may magandang pasok galing sa copernicus e..kaya aun, keilangan laging cool lng..hehe

ikaapat, first love ko...ayan na emo na..

first love ko ay ung "krema de fruta mula dun sa isang post sa blog n ito...itinuturing ko siyang first love kasi, siya ang unang nagbigay sa kin ng "marijuana feeling"...ung mga nauna, parang wala lng..

nasan n xha ngaun? basahin nio n lng ung pot entitled "kababaihan"...

ang huling first dito,

ang first girlfriend ko ay si....(watch out for this space...magkakaroon din ako ng matinong maisusulat d2)...

but wait there's more...naicpan ko n nmng magpost ng pic kc malakas tama ko ngaun...

i want us to be like those two...give me the chance (emo shet!)

un lng...ilang beses n kong namamatay sa mga halimaw n 2...hindi n naglevel character ko dhil s post n2..wahaha...this is the resident ungas signing off!!!

why this blog is like this?

2008-08-07T05:08:00.001-07:00

someone asked me, "bkit ang simple ng blog mo? lagyan mu nmn ng pics..."

sbi ko lng.."hindi ako marunong" khit mei alam nmn talaga ako sa html

actually, hindi ko ito nilalagyan ng pics at kung anu-anung borloloy dahil sa ilang mga kadahilanan

una, hindi ako mahilig sa pabonggahan, simplicity means beauty...

ikalawa. walang lamang pics ang celfone ko...

at huli, ayoko maglagay ng pics para lang masabing meron ako nun. gusto ko mei rason ang bawat litratong ilalagay ko.

at dahil may rason n ako para maglagay ng pic..e2 n ang unang pic na ilalagay ko sa blog n ito..

pink rose...pink as the color of soft-bound love...love that is still unsure...love that may never bloom but still tries to..

the day you said goodnight

2008-07-16T03:13:00.001-07:00

note: this random post may turn emo at some point. watch out...

una, ean ang title kc ean ang kantang sumasalamin sa nararamdaman ko ngaun(emo agad noh?)...
e2 n..random thoughts time na...nais kong itxt nio skin mga sagot niu kung mababasa niu man to

1. pag-ibig n ba un pag s bwat oras n lumilipas, isang tao lng ang nasa isip mo?

2. pag mahal mo ba ang isang babaeng tumitibok na ang puso para sa iba, wla ka n bang pag-asa?...tsaka matatalo mo ba ang kapangyarihan ng long-distance love affair?...

3. gaya ng energy, nacoconserve din b ang love? that means, "love is never lost"

4.masaya nga b talaga maging single? bkt parang hindi ko maramdaman?

5. masakit kayang maputulan ng appendages (kamay, paa and penis)? gus2 kong maexperience n ayaw ko...

6. magaling b talaga hale o gwapo lng vocalist nila? same applies to sponge cola pero hindi s cueshe...alam ko n sagot pag cla tinanung...

7. gus2 mu rin bang makita c anna ivanovic at maria sharapova sa personal?...at bkit kaya cla lng ang pro female tennis players n hindi panlalake ang katawan?

8. para sayo, masakit bang tanggapin n buong hayskul layp mo ay wala kang naging girlfriend o boyfriend?...

9. maganda b ung katabi ni paolo?

10. nagets mu b ung tanung bago to?

11. s tingin mo ba ay walang kwenta tong post n to?

aun lng...super random thoughts lng talaga...

this is ArchKnight POnta signing off...

mga tugtuging dumadaan sa tenga ko
the day you said goodnight
maybe
im not okay by mychem
torpedo by gloc9

Finally...

2008-06-14T18:25:00.000-07:00

after a month of idleness, naicpan q rin sa wakas na magpost d2 s blog ko. and dhil bagong school year n, bagong buhay na. ngayon, tula(?) nmn ang ipopost ko.

brief history of the poem(?) i'm gonna present. naisulat ko i2 sa sinehan habang umiinom ng iced tea kuno pero lasang tubig lang na may asukal. cguro malungkot lang ako nung araw na iyon kaya ganito ang naisulat ko. without further ado, e2 na.

"Bottomless" by T.G. Pontakun

I'm sitting here alone, in a table for two,
A glass of iced tea sat in front of me to quench my thirst,
Time passed quickly,
And the beverage was down to its last drop,

Unlike any other drop, this was pretty peculiar,
This drop was as liquid as any other, as cold as any other,
But it had a biter, salty, sour, taste, I could not deduce it,
It felt like it was not iced tea anymore,

I looked at my glass and was taken aback,
The glass was filled, but i doubt that it's tea,
It had the same feel, it had the same taste,
It felt like "the last drop" hat went through my throat

Alas, i came to my senses,
My moist cheeks gave it away,
It seems that my thirst was never quenched,
So my glass remained full.

alam ko, magulo siya. pero iyan n talaga ung gustong isulat ng kamay ko e. anyway, please feel free to give suggestions("cedric, ayusin mo nmn ung punctuation marks mo"), opinions ("cedric, mejo pwede na), or violent reaction ("*insert mura here* cedric, ang panget ng gawa mo. umayos k nmn sa buhay mo").

oras na pla noh?, apat p homework at wala p kong nagagawa . hanggang sa muli.....

first time ma-tag..wahahahaha!!!!

2008-05-04T00:20:00.000-07:00

tagged by marc

A. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blog and replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. Tag eight people. Those who are tagged cannot refuse.

B. These eight people must state who they were tagged by. You cannot tag the person who tagged you. Continue this game by sending this to eight other people

MY NOTE TO THE READER: wala aqng itatag dhil sbi nung pinagtanungan ko, dakila k raw pag wala kang dinamay sa pagkakatag mu

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will you you do?

magmumukmok, tapus maghahanap ng mas maayos na babae...

2. What will you do if you do not share the same feelings as the person who likes you?

sasabihin ko sa kanyang ndi niya ako dpat pag-aksayahan ng brain cells dhil wala nmn akong kwenta e, bkit p nia ko gugustuhin?

3. What if question number two was the other way around?

same as answer no.1 and 2, i-memerge lng..hehe

4. Would you rather be dumped by your girlfriend or see your girlfriend cheating on you?

i'd rather be dumped. period.

5. What`s your ideal partner like?

maganda, sexy in a way, witty, marunong maglaba, mamalantsa at magluto, pwedeng asahan sa lahat ng bagay, tapat at mapagmahal. sama mu n ren ung maputi, makinis, mayaman.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

option 2, ibig sbihin xe nun, binigyan ka ni Lord ng isang kaakit-akit na katangian, at hindi ka maxadong magsasayang ng brain cells.

7. If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue for them to change their feelings?

yup, sbi nga ni angelique, "you may not love me today, but you will love me tomorrow" or something...parang ganun un e..

8. If the person you like is already attached, what would you do?

same as in question 1

9. If the person you like says he/she likes you, and you are attached with someone else, what will you do?

sit on my thinking chair and think...think..thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiink!!!! think about what's gonna be better for me and for the other two people involved

10. What do you want most in your life?

pera at isang babaeng mamahalin ko ng sobra na kayang ibalik ang pagmamahal n ito

11. Is being tagged fun?

kinda, pero nakakaubos ng brain cells

12. What is the corniest thing you've ever wished for?

maging ninja ako (grade 1 pa ako nun, inspired ako sa flame of recca)

13.What do you think of "chick flicks"?

sometimes cool, sometimes too corny, only chick flick that i watched that is better than spiderman 3 is 50 first dates

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

adik

15. Would you rather be single & rich or married & poor?

single and rich

16. What would be the most extreme (and possible) thing you could do to get noticed?

act gay

17. Who deserves the credits more, the singer or the composer?

the composer, he wasted brain cells to make the singer more famous

18. Are you stupid and dumb?

yes

19. What types of people do you like?

people that are easy to get along with and are not backstabbers

20. If you played a prank on someone, and he or she fell for the trick, what would you do?

laugh with the victim

DOTA is love (adapted from a post by ian cubed on friendster)

2008-04-28T18:36:00.000-07:00

Ang tunay na intensyon ko nung gawin ko ang blog na ito ay ipakita sa lahat kung saan umiikot ang buhay ko, at ang dalawang bagay na hindi ko maikakailang kinaaadikan ko ay ang dota at pag-ibig. kaya sa post na ito, pag-uugnayin ang dalawang bagay na iyon. (kung ndi kau makarelate, magresearch kau o kaya sunugin niu n lng ang computer na nasa harapan mu)

DOTA is love:

c Enchantress k b?

-habang lumalayo ako sau, mas masakit..

c Doom k b?

-pag-anjan ka, mainit paligid ko..

c Silencer k b?

-kpg anjan ka, natatahimik ako..

c Beastmaster k b?

-maalaga ka kc..

c slardar k b?

-kc ms lumalakas tama ko sau..

c darkterror k b?

-ikaw lng gumagalaw sa mundo ko..

c razor k b?

- nakukuryente kc puso q sau..

c nerubian weaver k b?

-naghahabol aq lagi sau..

c omniknight k b?

-ikaw ang aking Guardian Angel..

bka naman CREEP k?

-lagi kasi kitang kasama..

hmm..

c phantom lancer b?

-cnong pipiliin ko sa inyo?

c techies b?

-suicide na ako kapag ala ka..

c leoric b?

-binubuhay mo ulit ako..

c crystal maiden b?

-kinikilig aq pag ksma k..

c pudge b?

-nahuli mo kc puso q..

c mirana b?

-dahil sau, napapatalon ako sa saya..

Frozen Throne o World Tree k b??

-kapag wala ka na, wala ng dahilan pa

†para lumaban pa..Ü†

di ba aus? marami na akong nakitang nag-break dahil sa dota. naisip ko tuloy na hindi pwedeng pagsabayin ang dalwang bagay na iyon. Pero ng mabasa ko ang post na iyan ni ian cubed, naliwanagan ako. pwde palang gumawa ng pick-up line na based sa dota. pero warning lng, 0.000000000000001% lng ang chance ng success kasi malamang hindi maka-relate sau ung kausap mu at bka sapakin k p nia sa mukha. pero kung naglalaro nmn ung sasabihan mu nian, mababawasan lng ng isang zero ung chance kasi...kasi....kasi...wala lng. hindi ko maisip kung bakit e...

at dito na nagtatapos ang isa na namang walang kwentang post mula kay cedric vergel aka great pontakun o pwede ring pugitang pinison. kahit ano wag lang pedrong kuto.

this is the resident ungas...signing off!!!

Kababaihan

2008-04-20T01:05:00.000-07:00

hindi natin mapagkakaila na pinakamalaking bahagi ng buhay ng isang lalake ang mga babaeng nagdadaan sa buhay niya. mga babaeng kanyang minahal, minamahal at mamahalin. Kaya ngayon, ito ang nais kong pagtuunan ng pansin sa post na ito, yung mga babaeng nagpasaya sa akin maliban sa nanay ko.

Una sa listahan ay isang babaeng itatago natin sa pangalang "Krema de Fruta" o KdF para cute. Mukha siyang bata sa itsura at kilos, hanggang ngayon, pero hindi ko alam kung bakit nung una ko siyang makita, binulungan ako ng puso ko ng "tangina, maganda di ba? pormahan mu na!". nung una hanggang sa dulo, torpe ako. kaya wala maxadong nangyare. minsan lang kami nag-uusap ni KdF at kadalasan pang napag-uusapan ay walang kwenta. ay mali pala ako, marami rin palang nangyare kasi 2 years akong pumorma (?) sa kanya. at maxadong mahaba ang two years para ikwento. ang kanta ko sa kanya ay iyong alipin ng shamrock. nung huli, nainlove si KdF sa isang SK kagawad kaya wala na, ayawan na.

isa pa sa mga babaeng dumaan sa buhay ko ay si "Yasmien kurdi." iyan ang ninckname niya xe si yasmien ang gumanap sa isang karakter sa tv na kapangalan ng babaeng ito. mahilig xhang magtxt at xha ang rason kung bakit ako naadik sa txt ulet. xha rin ang tanging naisayaw ko nung prom nmen (giveaway clue na ean). natapos ang istorya nung sinabi niya na ayaw nia.

isa pa ay si "walking mall" actually, crush n crush ko lang siya. walang nagyare sa pagitan nmen. crush ko lang talaga xha. gaya nina "a frog's ex" at nung bestfriend ni "yasmien kurdi".

last but not the least ay si "iron teeth" o IT para cute ule. wala ding maxadong nangyare smen pero grabe hanggang ngaun lakas-tama pa rin ako sa kanya. una ko xhang nakilala sa jeep nung nkisabay ako sa mga palaka at kulot. kapatid xha nung ihahatid ni kulot (giveaway clue n nmn) at hindi naiwasang inasar ako nung palaka sa kanya. nung una hindi ko lang pinapansin pero nung tumingi nako sa kanya, sumigaw ako sa loob ko. "Syeeeeeeht!! maganda pala xha sa malapitan" bago ang engkwentrong ito ay sa mga cheering competition ko lang siya nakikita. hindi ako nagagandahan sa kanya sa malayuan pero pag nilapit mu ung mukha mu sa mukha niya, magpu-poof si kupido sa likuran mo at ibabackstab ka ng pana niya. siya ang talagang rason kung bakit ako naadik sa txt, khet madaling-araw na at mei pasok kinabukasan, magpupuyat ako makatxt lng si IT.

natapos ang istorya nung nalaman kong aalis na ng pinas si IT. hindi man lang ako nagkaroon ng tsansang ipaalam sa kanya na mahal na mahal ko siya. isa ata ito sa mga pinakamalaking kagaguhan na nangyare sken. at ngayong wala na siya sa pinas, s YM ko n lng nakakausap si IT. pero hindi ko pa rin cnasbe s kanya na mahal n mahal ko siya. kaya kung sakaling mabasa mo ito at kung alam mo n ikaw ito, wala lng. wala nmng mababago itong post na ito kasi alam kong wala kang oras sa mga epal.

aun. mejo seryoso na ata post ko ngayon. sana nag-enjoy kayo sa pagbabasa ng isa n nmng Pulitser Prize winning article na binuo gamit ang keyboard ng computer $ ng 12/28 computer shop.

at ngayon,... "Babu na ang DA HUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!"

now playing..(pagaya angel)
you got game from prince of tennins anime
houki boshi fron bleach anime
brainstorm by beck
kite by prior of zion (band ean ni sir lupos, ung ST ng mapeh nung second year)

Kaibigan

2008-04-15T06:00:00.000-07:00

Sa wakas nakasama ko din ang mga kaibigan ko. Isang linggo din kaming hindi nagkita ng mga ungas na ito. Masaya. Nandoon pa rin ang asaran sa dota. Masaya. Bigla kong naisip....

Paano kaya kung walang magkakaibigan? May tao pa kayang matino ang pag-iisip? May makakangiti pa kaya? Mabubuo kaya ang mga pag-iibigan na nagbibigay-buhay sa isa pang bagong nilalang? Wala na siguro. Wala ng kwenta ang mundo.

Pero ano nga ba ang kaibigan? Ito ba iyong taong lagi kang nililibre ng fishball pag dumadating iyong manong na masarap gumawa ng sauce? Ito ba iyong taong tumatapik sa sa likod mo kapag umiiyak ka? (pwede ring hinihimas-himas pero you get the point nmn d ba?) O yung mga ungas na lagi mung kasama sa break, lunch break, coffee break at CR break at kadalasa'y umaabot sa cutting classes ang pagbebreak niyo? Para sa akin, utak na natin ang bahala kung ano nga ba ang ibig sabihin ng kaibigan para sa atin. At ang kaibigan para sa akin ay iyong mga taong kaya kang pangitiin sa tuwing kasama mo sila, at hindi komedyante ang tinutukoy ko. Iyong tipong mei halong dep feeling iyong ngiti na nasa labi mo.

Gaano kahalaga ang kaibigan? Magbibigay ako ng mga halimbawa. Tatawa ka ba kay spongebob kung hindi niya kasama sa Patrick? Sisikat ba si Batman kung wala si Robin? Matatalo ba ng Teen Titans si Slade kung hindi sila united? Makakapasok ba ang Shohoku sa Inter-High kung hindi sila magkakaibigan na nagtitiwala sa isa't-isa? At higit sa lahat, masaya ba ang break, lunch break, coffee break at CR break at kadalasa'y umaabot sa cutting classes kung mag-isa ka lang? Hindi diba?

May mga tinuturing pa rin akong kaibigan kahit hindi ko alam kung naaalala pa nila ako. May mga tinuturing din akong kaibigan kahit na hindi nila ako tinuturing na kaibigan. may mga tinuturing ako na kabigan kahit hindi nila ako kilala(metaphor yan).

Aun. Isa na namang walang kwentang post mula sa isang walang kwentang tao na walang magawa sa buhay. Sana na-enjoy niyo kahit paano ang mga random thoughts na pumasok sa isip ko.

Backstory pala muna bago ko tapusin ito. Bago ko itype to, kalahating oras bago ko mapasok iyong account ko. Kasi naman e, pinipilit ko pa rin iyung password ko na six characters lang e db eight characters dapat ang password sa blogger? Isa iyan sa signs of aging. Naexperience ko iyan nung nag-fifteen years old ako...hahahahaha...

aun..e2 na tapus na talaga. This is the resident ungas, signing off!!!! mehehe....

The Birth of a Pulitzer Prize Winning Internet Post

2008-04-09T08:59:00.000-07:00

Alas dose na ng gabi at hindi pa rin ako inaantok. nasa tapat pa rin ng computer ang mga mata ko kahit wala naman akong ginagawa. Tinanong ko ang sarili ko, "Ano ba ang pwedeng gawin?"

Maglalaro ba ako ng isang larong pambata na dalawang taon ko ng nilalaro pero hindi ko pa rin natatapos? Titingnan ko ba ang mga litrato ng kursunada kong babae na nakalantad sa friendster? O gagawin ko ba ang laging ginagawa ng kapatid ko sa tuwing nagbubukas siya ng computer sa madaling araw at tulog na kaming lahat?

Bigla kong nabasa ang offlinemessage ng isang kaibigan sa Yahoo Messenger. "Check out my blog," iyon ang nakasulat doon. Biglang may lumabas na lightbulb sa ulo ko at umapaw ang inspirasyon sa utak ko. Gagawa na rin ako ng blog. "Masaya 'to," bulong ko sa sarili ko.

Ang WEB LOG o BLOG na tinatawag ng karamihan ay isang magandang paraan ng pagpapaalam ng iyong mga opinyon at karanasan sa mga tao sa mundong ibabaw. Maaari ka ritong mag-post ng iyong mga larawan, artikulo, at marami pang iba upang maipamahagi sa mundo ang laman ng iyong isipan. Maaari ka ring kumita dito kung nanaisin mo at ng namamahala sa blog mo. Astig, hindi ba? Para ka lng sumusulat ng diary. Ang kaibahan lang, sa internet na at lantad na sa mga tao kahit hindi mo sila kilala ang mga nangyayari sa iyo. Parang "open diary" sabi nga ng kapatid ko.

At iyon na nga, nagsimula na akong gumawa ng blog. Dahil nabobobo na ako sa mga bagay-bagay, mahigit isang oras bago ako nakapagsign-up sa website na ito. Masyado ko kasing pinipilit na "******" ang password ko. Ang tagal bago ko napansin na eight characters pala dapat. Tapos hirap pa akong intindihin ung security code na pag tiningnan mo ay mukhang ginawa ng isang batang first timer sa paghawak ng paint brush. Pero ayos lang, naintindihan ko rin naman makalipas ang ilang minuto (naglalaro kasi ako ng mga larong pambata kaya medyo tumagal). "Woohoo!!! Next step na ako" pabulong akong sumigaw sa loob-loob ko.

Nilagyan ko na ng title at URL itong blog na ito. Bulate iyong kalaban ko sa nilalaro ko at hirap na hirap ako kaya ko naisip iyong "kumagnabulate" bilang parte ng URL ko. Medyo madali ang second step kaya masaya ako. Wahahaha!!!

Design naman ang kailangan sa last step. Since favorite ko ang pink, iyon na lang ang ginawa kong temporary template. Babaguhin ko na lang pag natuto na akong mag-ayos ng blog. Ito ang pinakamadali sa lahat ng step kaya pagtapos nito, aapaw na ako sa kaligayahan dahil makapagsusulat na ako ng Pulitzer Prize Winning Article na maipapamahagi ko sa mundo ng libre. Astig, hindi ba?

At ito na, nag-iisip na ako ng maisusulat. Bigla kong naisip na alas-dose na at hindi pa rin ako inaantok. nasa tapat pa rin ng computer ang mga mata ko kahit wala naman akong ginagawa. Tinanong ko ang sarili ko, "Ano ba ang pwedeng gawin?" (wait lang, deja vu ba ito? parang umulit na. Shit wala talaga akong magawa. tama na nga muna. tsaka na ako magsusulat ng mas makabuluhang artikulo. Nagtext na iyong babaeng maganda na dinededma ako e)

WOOHOO!!! FIRST POST!!!!