just another minor post after some songs got me emo...

i'd love it if you listen to the song, if you dont like the person in the vid, well, just listen and dont watch (but personally, i LOVE that girl in the video)



"our last kiss
tasted like tobacco
a bitter and sad smell

tomorrow, at this time
where will you be?
who will you be thinking about?

you are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

the paused time is
about to start moving
there's many things that I don't want to forget about

tomorrow, at this time
I will probably be crying
I will probably be thinking about you

you will always be inside my heart
you will always have your own place
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song

you are always gonna be my love
even if I fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember to love
you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until I can sing a new song"

so why did i just post something like this for my comeback? i really dont know, but there' something about the song that....hmmm...connects with me...

i dont know if i am yet to get over my first love...but heck, for me, every new love is a "first love"...

i got to go, two more hours before the start of my first class of the second semester, wish me luck...

just an added info, the chorus seems to be the same as a song from a filipino artist...just guess who (i personally hate that song)

i dont own the video nor the translation...

dont flame me for this!!!

so it's exactly 11:51...im want to know how long it takes for me to make an entry...

disclaimer: the following blog entry does not mean that you should question my sexuality...i am still straight...haha!!!

im want to talk about my new "addiction"...

is it a game? NO!!!
is it a tv show? NO!!!
is it porn? HELL NO!!!

it's a girl group!!! a korean girl group to be exact...

It's So nyu Shi Dae!! (or Girl's Generation)
(english is hard, filipino n nga lng)

"what the heck? c cedric nakikinig at nanonood ng ganyan? kung porn ean bka naniwala p ko..."

kung gusto nio clang makilala, konsultahin nio c google(nkakatamad magcopy-paste d2 e)..ang masasabi ko lng, cla ang the best n girl group n napanood ko(if you consider talent, songs, and marketability)...

pano ko nalaman ean? cmple lng, cnabi sken ng kuya ko na mas adik sken...pinapanood nia sken 2ng video n 2 and aun, nagustuhan ko...



(credits to those who should be credited, too many to mention)

ganda no? hehe...mas matutuwa k p s kanila pag pinanuod mu ung iba nilang vids s youtube...i dont want to sound like a girl, but they really are cute, funny, smart and talented (ignore those effing flamers and antis)

that's it for now...poging bagsik is signing out!!! peace!!!

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even the rain cant put me out!!!

i needed an output for this overflow of random thoughts coming into my head lately...
it was then that i remembered that this blog of mine existed...

first of all, activism has been on my mind lately...at first it didn't bother me, but after learning all that this wretched government has done to the country, things i never imagined were true, i really feel that i have an inner activist that wants to go out into the world. privatization of the land where my beloved state university stands, that freakin con-ass that i just understood lately (i knew about it, but i never really bothered to study it until now), and other things i read about while roaming UPD, they all seem so wrong to me..shucks i'll stop with this for now...

haist, nagiging emo n nmn mood ko, para matigil ang kaemohan...


ipapakita ko sa inyo kung ano ang itsura ng mga bontakun at kung gaano cla kacute lalo n pag nangraratrat gamit ang machine gun, ang inspirasyon ng screen name kong T.G. Pontakun (naging "p" kc akala ko bilog at hindi quotation marks ung nasa hiragana nung bontakun, it matters)





o db? ang cute no? and that's how i came to be..joke!!!

e2 p..video ng bontakun!!! e2 ung napanood ko kaya lalo kong inidolo c bontakun!!! wahehe!!



credits dun s mga site n makikita mo pag niright-click mo ung images at pinindot mo ung properties tsaka k furbyfurball ng youtube kahit ndi kmi close..ahaha!!! xempre sa creators ng fullmetal panic fumoffu para s paggawa ng bontakun!!!

signing out!! pEACE!!!!

the weirdest feeling from the weirdest name (my first week)

tagal ko ng di nagbablog aa..masubukan nga ulet...haiszt

first week ko s college? lupet dudes! kakaiba...

1st day, 1st subject, walking for fitness...sbi ng form5 ko s track oval daw...after 30 minutes ng paghahanap s oval, dadating k dun ng basang-basa dahil tanga ka at wala kang payong...ganda ng feeling no? mas gaganda p ean pag nalaman mo n s new gym pla ung klase nio...ganda ng feeling no? /sarcasm

pero dahil dun, nalaman kong pinagpapala ang mga naaapi...kung bakit ko nasabi ito ay sikret n lng...malalaman mo rin s mga susunod n buwan...

hainaku...dahil s 1st week, nalaman ko n ang importansya ng pakikimingle...ayoko maulet ung nangyare nung hayskul na nagpakaloner ako...nagmukha 2loy akong unapproachable..at according kei angelo, nagmukhang siga na nambubugbog at mabilis makikick-out...wahaha!!

anyway, masaya pla talaga ung feeling ng nkatambay k lng...wala kang ginagawa pero hindi k tinatamad...nkakapag-icp k...nkakapagbasa k ng libro...naiicp mo ung lesson niu s math17...iba ang feeling...hindi n ko confined s iisang lugar lng...nkakalibot n ko...parang nkamit ko n ung kalayaan n hinahanap ko cmula nung ipinanganak ako...haiszt...

pero dami ring nawala s buhay ko...walang pakikibarkada dahil wala nmn akong block...bawas ang dota dahil wala nmng kalaro...bawas ang paggigitara dahil ndi ko nmn pwedeng dalhin s skul un gitara ko...sarap p nmn sanang mangharana tuwing tuesday at thursday...ehem!

aun hirap talaga mag-icp ng isusulat pag cnisigawan k n ng "PATAYIN MO N EAN!!! ALAS_ONSE N!!!!

bago ako umalis...ill xare these vids n talagang nagpasaya sken nung summer...kung naooffend k s mga kabastusan at pagmumura...wag mu nang panuoren













credits sa Ungga Tungga Team! galing nio s kalokohan...wahaha!!

good man out, PEACE!!!

Im back! (views about thing we see on television)

"summertime, summertime"

grabe...tagal ko n rn plang hindi naglalabas ng saloobin gamit ang blog aa...daming topic n ndi ko naiblog...haiszt!!

ang hirap pla pag summer before college tpus wala kang pera...gusto mong lasapin lahat ng alam mong mamimiss mo pag ndi nasa kolehiyo k n pero hindi mo magawa...

gusto ko magdota- "ay, wala akong pera"
gusto ko mag-mall- "ay, wala akong pera"
gusto ko magtxt-"ay, wala akong load"

grabe talaga...ngayon alam ko n kahalagahan ng pag-iipon ng baon...

anyway, ngaung summer mei isa pang nkaiinis n bagay ngaung summer...
pag nanuod k ng tv, ang mga sumusunod ang karaniwang makikita mo...

• mukha ni pacquiao (maayos)
• mukha ni pacquiao (ngarag ng suntok)
• mukha ng kalaban ni pacquaio (mas ngarag, para maipakita ang dominance ni pacquiao)
  
• mukha ni ted failon
• bangkay ng asawa ni ted failon
• mga pulis n galit kay ted failon
  
• kaplastikan ni mar roxas
• kalokohan ng gobyerno
• mga taong walang ginagawa para umunlad kaya't sinisisi ang gobyerno
  
• mga baklang "nagpapatawa" sa pamamagitan ng panlalait sa iba
• mga nkaluwang boobs ng mga babaeng nagpapaseksi n lng para pag-usapan ng madla
• mukha mg mga artistang ndi nmn marunong umarte pero sobrang sikat dahil gwapo o maganda o kaya'y malaki ang boobs
• video ng kantang "love story" ni taylor swift
• mga nilalang ng karagatan n nagsasalitang parang tao
• mga game show na kinuha ang concept mula sa mga banyaga
• mga walang kamatayng asianovelas o kaya'y mga pinoy versions nito
  

anung pahiwatig ng mga ito tungkol s patutunguhan ng bansa ntin?

• magnanumber one c ted failon kung sakaling tatakbo xa bilang senador s 2010 election
• may isanlibo o mahigit pang magpapauto sa komersyal ni mar roxas at iboboto xa sa eleksyon. dadami pa ang mga gago kung magpapakasal sila ni korina sa february.
  
• hindi p rin matitigil ang sisihan sa pagitan ng masa at ng gobyerno. matitigil lng ito kung masusunog ang buong pilipinas at ilalock ang mga buwaya sa kongreso at s malacanang habang may session sila o kaya'y mamamatay ang lahat ng pilipino dahil s mass starvation.
• kung gusto mong maging nakakatawa, dapat ay bakla ka. no offense pero grabe, dominated n talaga ng mga bading ang industriya ng komedya. hindi man cla ang nasa itaas, karamihan nmn ng nasa ibaba ay kalahi nila. bihira ng makapanuod ng babaeng komedyante at ung isa pang sikat, isa lng ang brand of comedy (db ruffa mae?) anyway, buti n lng may "whose line is it anyway?" sa star world..nkakanuod p ko ng meaningful n comedy.
• maxado n taung nkapokus sa panlabas n anyo ng tao. s showbiz ngaun, kung hindi k maganda o gwapo, hindi k sisikat (unless talentado k talaga at matiyaga). buti p c susan boyle n kahit ganun ang itsura ay lubos ang papuri nila s kanya. pakantahin mo un dito, lalaitin lng mukha niya. kaya hindi sumikat ung nanalo ng philippine idol n c mau marcelo kahit magling xa e, maxado kc xang mataba kaya nasasabing "unmarketable" xa. ndi naappreciate ang mga totoong talentado s musika e. mas gusto nten ung magaganda at gwapo ang kumakanta kesa sa kanila. kaya ang kalalabasan, ung mga sikat na artista n lng ang pinapagawa ng album. pinag-rerevive n lng cla ng mga sikat n kanta dati para ndi pancnin n ndi cla marunong kumanta. o kaya todo remix para maging kaboses nila ung mga kagaya nina susan boyle at mau marcelo. isa lng ang masasabi kong magaling talaga at may itsurang ihaharap, c sarah geronimo.
• patay na ang originality sa telebisyon. kung pwede nga lng e foreign shows n lng ang ipalabas sa local channels at isingit n lng sa lineup nila ung wowowee, eat bulaga, at mag flash report n lng every now and then.

aun lng...wala n kong maidagdag...hirap mag-isip pag sinigawan k n ng nanay mo ng "PATAYIN MO N EAN!!!"

peace!

P.S. iwanna share this video (para sa mga taong walang cable o kaya'y ndi fan ng kamikazee)


credits to Universal Records para s video at sa Myx para sa pagpopost nito s youtube

another episode in the life of a worthless earth creature

so, what now? not a lot of things happening lately...except for those really great surprises from Benjamin Almeda that we all love...and an unpleasant game of Grand chase that haunted me...

if you were given a chance to choose between one of two forked paths, one is short and will lead to a safe and comfortable place, one is really long, winding and uncertainty lies at the end, where will you go? why the hell did i choose the long one? i dont know if im just adventurous or just extremely idiotic...i was told to stop but i continued. now im bleeding from the inside...

this post may be another reason to call me "emo", but heck, emo n kung emo, pinili kong maging expressive e...walang pakialamanan...

tama n nga muna ang ganito,...nagsasawa n ata kau sa ganitong laman ng blog n to n walang pictures, makaluma ang background music at kung anu-anu pang ka-"low tech"-an...cguro next tym i post..masaya n..makakalimot n ko...haha

lyrics time para mahaba-haba nmn mapost ko

Of all the things I believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears from behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days passed me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I used to get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

When the stars fall and I lie awake
You're my shooting star

"what doesn't hurt you, makes you stronger"

The Law of Parting ways

Well, im back to blogging...


been topsy-turvy lately...i don't know if its going way too easy or just getting harder..
easy because there has been almost nothing to do in school, english and physics are the only real subjects now, with mapeh, eco, chem, and calculus as semi-subjects and others are just nonsense. i dont really get the point in going to school now except for the money and the oppportunity to see two girls i really like.

on the contrary, it's really hard.

first, graduation. i dont really see myself being away from these people that go by the alias 4AVER. it's true that i despised them during the early parts of the year but after one fateful day, evrything changed. it's like every bonding opportunity with them is time well spent. with them, there's a reason to smile everyday.

but as they say, all good things must come to an end. people of 4AVER will go separate ways. different colleges to go to, new circle of friends to form, 39 lives that will start anew. it's just so sad. and i think benjamin almeda will make it even harder to part.

those nights spent for practices TOGETHER...
those trash collecting sprees TOGETHER...
those crying moments TOGETHER...
the xmas concert we performed TOGETHER...

every bit of memory just makes it even harder to leave mandsci...

i never realized that i will say this but..

"THIS CLASS IS FREAKIN' AWESOME!!!!" "I LOVE THIS CLASS"

im getting a bit drowsy and teary-eyed...gotta leave

"parting is such a sweet sorrow"

dahil paranoid ako s bipolar disorder

nagawa ko ito..thx kay angelique piano

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	High
Schizoid Disorder:	Moderate
Schizotypal Disorder:	High
Antisocial Disorder:	Moderate
Borderline Disorder:	Moderate
Histrionic Disorder:	High
Narcissistic Disorder:	Very High
Avoidant Disorder:	High
Dependent Disorder:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- -- Personality Disorders --

awwwww!!!

something i think i have...

belated merry xmas and a happy new year!!!

i've been reading and im deeply concerned about this disease. i think i have it but as most doctors say, it's hard to diagnose even for experts.

Bipolar disorder is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a category of mood disorders defined by the presence of one or more episodes of abnormally elevated mood clinically referred to as mania or, if milder, hypomania. Individuals who experience manic episodes also commonly experience depressive episodes or symptoms, or mixed episodes in which features of both mania and depression are present at the same time. These episodes are usually separated by periods of "normal" mood, but in some individuals, depression and mania may rapidly alternate, known as rapid cycling. Extreme manic episodes can sometimes lead to psychotic symptoms such as delusions and hallucinations. (from wikipedia)

Mania is characterized by increased energy, speech disruptions, impaired judgment, changes in thought patterns, mood changes, changes in perception. people often experience anxiety and irritability to the point of rage.

im sure that i have experienced these before. there was one time that my friends actually said something about me being fat that i was enraged and chased them out of the room (trust me, this does not usually happen). another is racing thoughts. im pretty sure that my thoughts are usually like this. also, i had sudden outbursts of creativity, distractability, and disjointed thinking. and last is inflated self-esteem. i dont wanna get started on that. omg!

Next is depression. it is often characterized by the opposite of what happens in mania. and people with this usually talks about, suicide and being actually dead. loss of excitement over pleasurable activities, hopelessness, helplessness, inability to concentrate, are some symptoms.

now this is one that i am sure of. there was this period(or periods) in my life that i been so depressed that my grades went down, i never enjoyed dota, and i "locked myself from the world." there are countless events that i asked someone about suicide and what would they do if i die, what if i faked a suicide and such. my friends often call me emo for these things.

im still not sure and i dont know if a nearby doctor can help me. oh shucks! im getting worried.

bye for now...ahahahaiii!!!